6 Things Staying On My Mind

6 things staying on my mind

(in no particular order)

a yellow cluster of dandelions amongst others in the grass of a city median (spring 2023 bk). i can’t stop thinking about Empress Karen Rose’s description of them as little communities of healers that pop up wherever, with fervor, ready to heal.

i used to think talking ab friends who aren’t present was harmful gossip that only drives wedges in relationship. now i realize how healing it can be to draw bridges between our mutirealities with varied contexts. a window into wider experience that can color our knowledge of our own experience and better inform our relationship building/evolving.

black&white interference pattern drawing of magnolia blossom & budz with a wavelength, a spiral, and stars by lou fuzzy 2023

the past present and future all exist always in spacetime. so if we can affect the future in the present we can equally affect the past from the present. it’s not that the physical manifestations of the experienced events change..rather our relationship to those events changes which changes everything.

a cherry blossom parasol over the water, brooklyn botanic gardens 2023

letting go of hierarchies means also releasing our own perceived positions of power and influence. power and influence remain. but it is that which emanates from our deepest self and interconnectivity rather than from an imposed, oppressive conceptual structure.

black&white interference pattern drawing of tulips with moon and stars by lou fuzzy 2023

i have learned that, as an earthbean, i am a mere collaborator with the universe (Us). i make choice, i have agency, but i also must work with what is available and present.. not only must i, but my conscious willingness to do so is what i find to be the secret to flow. so if everything is always where i need it at any given moment, how can i shift my perspective to be available to focus on it?

STAR card from the newly released tarot deck: The Trickster’s Journey by Jia Sung

i can’t stop revering the generativeness of conflict and discomfort, and noticing how they are key initiators for change (and if we are present and willing [r]evolution). i’m also reminded how earth-rocking that discomfort can be..and then i remember how that is maybe the point? to let my earth be rocked and to stop resisting/holding myself in stagnation.

black&white interference pattern drawing of a moth with stars by lou fuzzy 2023

i have been receiving so many juicy fruits that are products from seeds planted long ago,, many of the things i felt, at the time, were not ‘paying-off’. with each sparkle i am reminded how uncomfortable it was to be outcome-oriented instead of process-focused. process-focused = present; receptive; responsive; open; an adaptive, trusting/faithful orientation to the process including toward collaborative entities*.

fuzzy nibbles on a cherry blossom while holding their branch

[notes:
*black&white interference pattern drawing is a recent style i’ve been moving with as a way to work with/thru duality and interaction. images become apparent thru contrast and their beauty is seen thru a different pattern of appreciation.
*entities can include humans, ideas, energy, all non-human earthlings, trusted spirit guides etc]